Got in terrible accident but still want to ride

Last week I was riding home from work looking forward to the weekend thinking to myself I’m gonna ride extra safe today cause I wanna spend a great valentines with my girl and not get injured or do something careless and have to pay to fix my bike. I was riding down the freeway like I always. I saw a tow truck on side of the freeway I quickly glanced as I rode past to see what he was doing and then looked ahead. The traffic that was going 50-60mph has just suddenly turned into a 5mph standstill as I guess someone from that tow truck accident pulled out and cut a bunch of people off. I panicked unfortunately and fight or flight took over and I quickly grabbed my breaks (I have abs). I unfortunately did not stop in time and slammed into the back of an SUV where lucky for me I went through the back windshield and didn’t break my neck. My groin slammed into my ga/ tank and then I flew into the back of the car. I walked about before realizing one of my balls was in some serious pain. Ambulance ride and surgery later and I’m slowly recovering hopefully back to 100% time will tell.I feel honestly really stupid for not just swerving out of the way. My bike is a total loss I’m out a large medical bill and I had just decided a month ago to take collision coverage off my bike. I love riding and I think I actually want to do it again once I’m recovered but man am I gonna invest in a cup or something if I do. And I’m gonna watch a lot of videos of riding accidents and think ahead of situations where accidents might happen and anticipate what I might do. I have swerved out of accidents many times before but being caught off guard to see brake lights in front of me so close just somehow made me stop thinking.I would post pics of the injury but i don’t think anyone wants to see that. via /r/motorcycles https://www.reddit.com/r/motorcycles/comments/f747kt/got_in_terrible_accident_but_still_want_to_ride/?utm_source=ifttt