Dropped my new bike before even starting the engine, really nervous and wondering if it's too much bike for me

Hey guys! I'm excited to start motorcycling, I took the MSF course a few weeks ago and had a blast. I just purchased a Honda Shadow 750 which I'm in love with... except, for uh......I''m really scared to ride it, and also I might be too short/light/small and I'm not really sure whether this is "new rider nerves" (solution: just grow a pair) and how much is my first bike choice being a poor one!I'm a girl, 5'6", about 150 lbs. I can sit flat-footed on the bike and balance it pretty well, but right now it's parked in gravel and I can't even back it out of the parking space (HA). I turned the engine and fuel on, sat on it, realized I couldn't move it, hopped off to try and reverse it while standing to the side AAAAAAND it dropped. I could BARELY pick it up myself.Now, I'm all about hitting the gym to do some squats, don't get me wrong. That's the plan. But I do wonder... did I mess up? Or will I just get used to it? (assuming the bike does eventually make it out of this parking spot) via /r/motorcycles https://www.reddit.com/r/motorcycles/comments/bun014/dropped_my_new_bike_before_even_starting_the/?utm_source=ifttt